Thursday, November 19, 2009


This is now close to the end of the year and I am reflecting on many events that have occured in my life. Most of the events have been internal discussuions I have had with myself and now have come to some conclusions.
Sometimes the internal struggles are the ones where changes are made that affect future choices and influence so many others. I hope that my struggles have given rise to more effective and better outcomes in my life.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Wonderful Life

Life goes on and we see it reflected in so many ways. The weather is so beautiful today the greenest I've seen the grass and trees and the wonderful smells of flowers in the air.
I am so excited! My daughter just got engaged!
What a day.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Graduation...or not

Today most of my class mates are graduating. I chose to wait just one more semester. I don't know if this was a good choice or not. I did so want to see everyone I took a class with at one time or another. It seems I am missing the group fun. I will probably be alone in the fall for graduation. Pity, pity but the choice was already made. I will celebrate with my husband who suffered through this with me and only my cat will be gone. That is what I will miss the most. My cat stayed up with me every night I was working on my papers. She joined me in class every week. I have to make the last class without her.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

In Memory of Kits

On Monday, April 27, 2009 I lost my cat. Some people see my photo and wonder why a picture of my cat is there. She was with me for over 15 years. Always by my side. During the last few years she slept right by my head, I heard her breathing every night.
She was the only friend I had for many years. I was at home while my husband was away doing whatever military things he did and my daughter was at school. My cat never left my side. She talked to me, I talked to her. Now the house is silent. So quiet. No one will ever replace her.
At the time we said good by, I wanted to hold on to her just a bit longer. Wasn't there something else I could have done. But there was nothing to make her better. Her cancer had taken her spirit from us and only her shell of a body was left. I wanted to to hold on to her just a bit longer but she would have been the one to suffer for me and she had gone through enough already. How could I keep her for my selfish need. I miss her voice,I miss her warmth, I thoroughly miss her. I can no longer see the computer but I neede to say I loved her and miss her and the words are not enough.